poisoninaprettyglass:

a-morbid-fascination:

You’ve got to hide your love awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. doo doo doo dooooooooooooo. man I should put that mac and cheese away. That fan is a weird noise. I don’t even know what Ian is doing right now. I should remember my coffee tomorrow. Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. Pies. I want some candy. There’s jelly beans near me maybe I’ll eat some but none of the good ones are left what do I do. What is math though. Glad I didn’t have homework tonight. Honestly I don’t think as crazily as you guys mostly I just sit around and stare blankly daydreaming. I think when I read mostly. Then I start thinking about things going on. Man I’m just sighinggggggg.

I am feeling like I really don’t understand what’s going on in my brain. It is like it just blew up today. My legs hurt. I feel nnauseous. Why isn’t she texting back? This is a really neat idea. I have done this before. Usually it’s all gibberish and I just delete it. I might do the same with this who knows. Damn it I still need to find that shirt and pant I couldn’t fins this morning. I JUST saw them when I was cleaning so I know they are still alive and kickin. They should be folded! But alas„ earwax. My leg is falling asleep. Can’t I just sleep forever? I mean really there is no fun in being awake. I just sit there and do nothing productive, and every night I am like, man I should do something productive tomorrow! But does anything happen? Nope. I just tumbl or nap,. or both. Fuck this, this is no way to live. I want to sleep. I am just going into a deep hibernation and I am not waking for a very long time..I don’t want to be dead, I just want to, not be conscious..if that makes sense. I don’t know but my calf and shit hurts and I am just so confused today..why khdfAWIPeuadwuie confusionnnnnnnn,.ermmhhhhh. Man this not stopping to think thing is blowing my mind. I think I am going to go open a word document and try this on a deeper level. Goodbye.

I feel like I’m probably cheating at this because I was thinking about what was on my mind and then I was thinking “oh Wow, that’s actually really cool but now people might think I’m a total hipster poser snob for actually thinking that shit.” I’m not actually sure what cool shit I was thinking, but I think it began with “in the course of human existence” and ended with some angry rant about how there’s no such thing as an “undeserving poor person” vs. a “deserving one” and the whole welfare system is totally fucked fucked fucked. And then I was thinking slim jims are delicious and social justice probably tastes like blue raspberry or maybe something not quite as artificial but then I was thinking artificial maybe that’s a social construct which is bullshit and I really hate how white cis people throw that shit in your face all the time. WTF does ‘it’s just a social construct’ even mean? Social constructs are so fucking powerful. I don’t know. Soda is also so fucking powerful. I want to create a car that can be powered by mountain dew. Dewmobile. in dew-bidibly.  That thing. That thing that thinggggggg, like Lauren Hill in the 90s. That was the shit. I am way too old for this crap and I have contracts to read.